Fail

Well I got the job....sort of.  They called and told me I got it.  They said I would receive a new employee packet with everything I needed to know.  Once I completed it I was to send it back.  A week later and no packet, I finally got a call saying the positions were cancelled because the company was cutting back.  With school starting back up they did not have as much business and needed to reduce its costs.  I saw an article about them and most likely they will add positions later but that does not help me now.

I had continued applying for other jobs and still am.  It does seem like we are headed for the poor house.  It makes me second guess to retire.  I know I feel better now that I have except for the financial issue.  If only I could get something to at least pay the bills.  I know I should have planned better years ago and not spent as freely or gotten "toys" that we still have (and are still paying on).  In my mind, if we could get rid of those toys then we would be better off.  It probably is not the truth but it makes me feel better.

My family has depended on me for so long and now I may have made a decision that is totally wrong for the family.  One that affects everyone negatively.  I feel selfish about my decision...