Feeling Better

I was thinking about needing a job when it dawned on me that I have been growing at the same time.  I realized that retiring was a big step but one I needed to do.  I feel so much better about myself (aside from worrying about paying the bills) that I know I made the right decision.  I have been able to be with my daughter and have been learning about dogs.

I know that sounds strange but my husband normally does the training of them but this time is different for me.  We had adopted a rescue female dog.  She does not like men and gravitates toward women.  She loves my husband because he has shown her he can be trusted.  Also, he has been showing me how to train her (the dog).  I think she has learned we are safe and will not hurt her.  We will give her love and she has responded.  She is such a loving dog and has given me more calmness and understanding.  I feel more confident because she has given me the ability to grow along with her.  I thank her for that and I thank my husband for his understanding.

He has supported me in my decisions even when he did not like it or want to.  It has been very rough for him but he has stayed with me.  It makes me love him more each day...I am grateful to have him.

Fail

Well I got the job....sort of.  They called and told me I got it.  They said I would receive a new employee packet with everything I needed to know.  Once I completed it I was to send it back.  A week later and no packet, I finally got a call saying the positions were cancelled because the company was cutting back.  With school starting back up they did not have as much business and needed to reduce its costs.  I saw an article about them and most likely they will add positions later but that does not help me now.

I had continued applying for other jobs and still am.  It does seem like we are headed for the poor house.  It makes me second guess to retire.  I know I feel better now that I have except for the financial issue.  If only I could get something to at least pay the bills.  I know I should have planned better years ago and not spent as freely or gotten "toys" that we still have (and are still paying on).  In my mind, if we could get rid of those toys then we would be better off.  It probably is not the truth but it makes me feel better.

My family has depended on me for so long and now I may have made a decision that is totally wrong for the family.  One that affects everyone negatively.  I feel selfish about my decision...   

Think I got it

I went for an interview at the airport the other day.  I am pretty sure I got the job but they are waiting on the paperwork.  They also need to do a background check.  I am not worried about that part...I have nothing to hide.  The pay is not what I would like and the hours are not guaranteed full time but I will take it because I need a job.  I retired at a bad time; the economy is not good so a lot of people are looking for jobs.  I sent my resume to another company in the hopes they will keep me in mind if a position opens up.  They replied saying something is opening in September but they are taking internal applicants first.  That's understandable but it would be a job that would challenge me.  I have done most aspects of the job at different times during my first career and I would have to learn what I have not done...but it would be a great opportunity for me.

I had always said my retirement plan was winning the lottery.  That never happened but I am still trying.  I know that I won't win any amount big enough to live off it...it would be nice though.  I think of the people I would help and how nice it would be to be debt free.  That is all I really want....to be debt free.  

Where to begin

This is new to me.  It has been over 20 years since I needed a job.  I just retired and started applying online.  So much easier than my younger days when you had to physically go to locations and fill out an application.  But not so easy as to get a call or message saying they were interested.  In fact, if I heard from anyone, it was to say they hired someone else or I didn't meet the qualifications.

I had my first interview yesterday though.  I thought it went well but I have to wait and see.  It would be nice to get it even though it is part time.  I need the money to pay bills and be able to feed the family.  Which by the way, is four people and three dogs.  Anyway, I am hoping to hear something positive.

I sent my resume to another company yesterday so I could be considered if anything opened up.  Actually got a message back saying it was sent to another person because a position will be open in September.  I would prefer sooner but that is still before my other pay stops.

I will stop by later and post what happens or doesn't happen.